Monday, October 17, 2005
Man I have school in a few hours, not really sleepy yet. Man I have to sell my boyfriend's gift which really sucks ass. Don't wanna do it, but I have to. My mom came over the house, she didn't come in. We were talking outside, she was telling me that Kylel medical expired or something and that my dad took him because of what my sister said. My mom got mad so she's kicking my sister out of the house. I didn't know my older sister moved out of the house already. Well anyways that doesn't matter. My mom told me that I got really skinny, how the hell could people see that. LOL I remember when I came back from the Philippines my aunt told me I gain weight. I couldn't even tell, I looked the same. Well I could tell if I'm getting skinner. She also asked me how come I never left the house. She thought my boyfriend is restricting me from going out. I told her that's not true. Told her just scared to go out and see anyone.
Well anyways my boyfriend isn't here yet, said he's coming on Tuesday. I don't know if that's for sure. Because he said that few weeks and looked he never came. Said his doctor didn't give him clearance to aboard the plane so he had to stay for few more days. Why am I not all that happy/surprise or whatever, that he's coming back. I guess I was having so much fun living all by myself in this house. Seriously I don't know why, I even txt that he could stay there as long as he wants as long as he comes back. Man I remember I would get mad for staying there longer than he suppose to. OK what the hell happen to me. I remember I would get so excited everytime he calls, txt or email me. I guess I just got used to staying here by myself without anyone else here. I been in this house all by myself without anyone. I usually get all paranoid because I would thinks about a lot of things. Well I got to go to sleep soon, I have to go to class in a few hours.
I guess I'm just stressing on a lot of things, that it's affecting my mood. Look I couldn't even concentrate in school, I'm about to fail both my classes. Which I am about to drop. I don't want to finish a whole semester and know that I can't even catch up. Attendance counts in biology, and for accounting I have been doing those weekly internet search or weekly Wall Street Stuff. I'm only doing the homework and sometimes doing the quizzes. I missed 3 quizzes in the past three weeks already. I just don't like the teacher, she doesn't really teach you anything. I'm basically teaching myself, which I'm sorta kinda a slower learner. Not really explaining the work, how she does it or how she even got those numbers. It's really all that clear, she mostly talks about her life story. My accounting prof. in summer school was even much better in explaining everything so clearly. OMG it's almost two, I've got to go to bed soon. IF I could sleep, I been having so much trouble sleeping lately. Last night I didn't even sleep till 4AM. The cats looks so peaceful when sleeping. They can sleep better than me.
LOL it's like Kona is getting so attached to me, because she would follow everywhere I go. To the bathroom, downstairs, bedroom, etc, always by my side. When I'm watching tv, shes either on my lap, laying on top of me or right next to me, she'll always be right there. When I come home she's right by the door waiting for me to come in. OMG why I'm I getting so emotional about this. I guess I just like it when shes always there. Well anyways I think I might go to bed. Damnmit I got homework that I've got to do first. Nights
Well anyways my boyfriend isn't here yet, said he's coming on Tuesday. I don't know if that's for sure. Because he said that few weeks and looked he never came. Said his doctor didn't give him clearance to aboard the plane so he had to stay for few more days. Why am I not all that happy/surprise or whatever, that he's coming back. I guess I was having so much fun living all by myself in this house. Seriously I don't know why, I even txt that he could stay there as long as he wants as long as he comes back. Man I remember I would get mad for staying there longer than he suppose to. OK what the hell happen to me. I remember I would get so excited everytime he calls, txt or email me. I guess I just got used to staying here by myself without anyone else here. I been in this house all by myself without anyone. I usually get all paranoid because I would thinks about a lot of things. Well I got to go to sleep soon, I have to go to class in a few hours.
I guess I'm just stressing on a lot of things, that it's affecting my mood. Look I couldn't even concentrate in school, I'm about to fail both my classes. Which I am about to drop. I don't want to finish a whole semester and know that I can't even catch up. Attendance counts in biology, and for accounting I have been doing those weekly internet search or weekly Wall Street Stuff. I'm only doing the homework and sometimes doing the quizzes. I missed 3 quizzes in the past three weeks already. I just don't like the teacher, she doesn't really teach you anything. I'm basically teaching myself, which I'm sorta kinda a slower learner. Not really explaining the work, how she does it or how she even got those numbers. It's really all that clear, she mostly talks about her life story. My accounting prof. in summer school was even much better in explaining everything so clearly. OMG it's almost two, I've got to go to bed soon. IF I could sleep, I been having so much trouble sleeping lately. Last night I didn't even sleep till 4AM. The cats looks so peaceful when sleeping. They can sleep better than me.
LOL it's like Kona is getting so attached to me, because she would follow everywhere I go. To the bathroom, downstairs, bedroom, etc, always by my side. When I'm watching tv, shes either on my lap, laying on top of me or right next to me, she'll always be right there. When I come home she's right by the door waiting for me to come in. OMG why I'm I getting so emotional about this. I guess I just like it when shes always there. Well anyways I think I might go to bed. Damnmit I got homework that I've got to do first. Nights
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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