Everyday Life

2008-08-26T23:56:00.000-07:00

This will probably be my last post here on blogger. I just started using wordpress. If there was an iPhone app for this then I would continue using blogger.

New Blog

2008-07-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

today my bf's mom, Leo and I went to Serramonte to eat. After that we went to target to buy cookies, crackers, juice, etc for Leo. As i was heading back to the car, this lady came out of nowhere and said "do you want to get your hand read" (something like that, i guess) so i said no. She was like "your confuse about your love line, here's my card if you want to call me" i was kind of weird me out because i was thinking while heading back, could she be right? I don't know because at times i do get mix feelings for Romeo. Sometimes I love him Nd sometimes i don't. The times i dont is when we fight about the stupidest things. It just makes me so f@?!!!@ mad at times. Well anyway we were heading back home there was the one guy in a black car who I almost hit because the dude didn't even look that it was my right a way. (My side was green) long story short I was freaking out all the way home.

Hours later when bf got home I explained what happen and he got all mad just because I wasn't explaining everything CLEARLY. I got mad, I got so pissed got my jacket from downstairs went back up to get the keys from him. As I grabbed the keys he grabbed me and askrf where the ?$?!! am I going. I can see that he was bout to hit me or something. Which I should of just dare him so I have the PERFECT excuse to leave. He hit me and not ever coming back.

Other times that I have mix feelings is that seriously I think that he hiding a lot of things from me. Especially when I go to the computer room. When I walk in, I can see him always closing his email account window as I walk into the room. It's like he doesn't want me to see his emAils. AlawYs making excuses about why he closes it, which is hard to believe. It's juSt not his email accounts he closes you know.

Few years ago I caught him a lot. Here's a list:

1. Got a letter from some girl when he came back from the Philippines the first time I was with him. Had pictures he taken with some female like it was his gf. (was behind her and holding her as if bf/gf - dude he did that to me when we take pic together. Emails from female friend saying that they're going to make a movie together and that he messes up a lot and that they're going to have to take retakes over and over and over again. (some sexual fantasy) Emails to his ex gf that he has a dream that he pin her to the wall and was sexually doing it to her. Texts from some female from the Philippines - I read everything which was very upsetting. This list goes on and on. Most of what i listed...he had all these excuses..which it still hard to believe. COME ON he's already getting old and still trying to cheat on people. He doesn't care if he cheats, but when a female cheats on him it a different story.

Remembering everyone one of these is making me very upset. See the thing is...I really do love him very much..but there are a lot of confusions. Why can't he just more honest, open and etc. Doesnt even have patience..I always wait for him you know. Why can't he change his temper. I mean he gets mad very easily (has a short temper). Which makes me very upset. I mean come on at little small things he's already piss as hell. Like me forget to order some food he wanted, forget payroll for the employee, don't tell me the exact numbers we made for the month, etc. Can't he just nicely or say it in a nice wAy or something..I'm a very very sensitive person and I cry very very easily. It's a bad habit, I think it was from a bad childhood I had you know...I seriously had a very bad relationship with me mom side of the family...me always getting picked on out of my whole my kids. Step dad, uncles, aunts, etc purposely trying to make me cry everyday. Sexually touch by my mom's dad (since i was six) and brother (told people but no one believe me, thought i was crazy) and other people who are trying..My aunt's husband (dad side)told my aunt didn't believe me, she thought her husband was playing around. and my friend (not my friend anymore). Other times (my mom side) people calls me stupid, crazy just because my dad side has two siblings that has a mental disorder. If I had lived my whole life with my dad it would probably be different. Wow me coming out with everything like this is weird. My childhood wasn't very easy you know...it was really hard..,very very upsetting to remember everything. I just want to move somewhere very far away forget everything that has happen. I really think my life really sucks.

iPhone Blog

2008-06-11T13:24:00.000-07:00

Romeo's mom now blaming my family for taking new clothes. Nobody I mean nobody in my family ever/hardly comes to this house. Usually when they do come over someone, they only stay for a couple of minutes. Just to check to see how I'm doing. Well actually my mom is the ONLY one who comes over. None of my brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, etc ever comes over.

Jeeze the stuff are in the house. Where can they go, its not like clothes can move. I'm missing stuff too, do you see me blaming other people. No, cause I know its misplace somewhere in tue house, I can't remember where I put it. I remember what my dad once told me, I can't blame someone UNLESS I know who really took it.

I'm here with Romeo's mom every single day that like 24/7. She been here what...since March of 2007. She hardly stays with her other kids how can she say that my family are taking her stuff. Or how she thinks I'm giving her stuff away when I'm here with her every singl day. And those days when she's not here yes I'm alone here with Leo. Nobody ever steps into this house.

I NEVER in my life would take someone things without asking first. I'm not that kind of person who wild take things from people. If its not mine I don't touch it. I can afford to get my own things. I work hard to get the things I want.

The 100 Best Products of the Year

2008-06-02T15:35:00.000-07:00

I read online that the the Nintendo Wii and the Apple iPhone were one of the top 100 best products of the year. I'm going to list everything here if you want to read more click on the link below. Bold letterings are just sites I go to on a regular basis or items I own.

Apple iPhone (smart phone, $400 with two-year AT&T wireless contract)

Wikipedia (open-source encyclopedia, free)

Microsoft XBox Live (online service, $59/year)

Craigslist (online classifieds and discussion, free)

Scrabulous (PC game, free)

Nintendo Wii (game console, $250)

Twitter (social networking site, free)

Safari (mobile browser, free)

Yelp.com (online social reviews, free)

Vimeo (video-sharing site, free)

TellMe (mobile search, free)

YouTube (viral video site, free)

Lifehacker (blog, free)

The 100 Best Products of the Year <-- Click to Read More

Blamed For Something I Didn't Do

2008-05-27T22:18:00.000-07:00

today was a bad day for me. My boyfriend's mom was accusing me of stealing/giving away all her clothes that she was going to give away to the people in the Philippines. I was crying all day because she thinks I been taking her stuff. I know thats what she trying to say. She kept yelling who "would take the clothes here, the ghost. Tanette wouldn't take anything from my room, she never goes in my room." she kept saying that she knows exactly where she puts things (are you sure about that?). At first she was blaming me that I was giving away leonardo's baby clothes. I mean come on..I kept telling her its somewhere in the house. I just want to yell back and say stop blaming me for things that are here in the house, it been misplace just need to look harder. Jeeze I'm in the house with her 24/7 who the hell would give all those clothes thats missing too...the stairs, the oven, the bathroom jeeze it could be anywhere in the f**** house not someone elses hand.

I NEVER touch anyone things if its not mine. I always ask first before taking. If I like their stuff I would ask where they get if not I would probably find out where they got it. As you know i'm always online..lol I could find out anything online.

Long story short if its not mine..I don't touch it
Look first before you blame someone

Wii Fit Here

2008-05-23T16:06:00.000-07:00

Finally yesterday like around the afternoon UPS delivery guy rang the doorbell...so I ran to open it. There it was the box from Amazon. I was so so freaking excited I opened it right away...I was so excited I wanted to scream...LOL..so I ran upstairs set it up and started playing...There was extentions for the balance board so I didn't bother putting them on because I read online that if you have thick carpet you need to add those. Well anyways I picked my mii, entered my birthday and they it did the rest. I was suppose what came out it said I'm underweight, and my wii fit age is 37. I was like whhaaat..well anyways I didn't bother paying any attention to that so I started playing...long story short its so fun and I can't even stop playing it. It's a very fun way to start excersing.

Today I decided to add the extention as I heard that people are getting unaccurate reading with their weight (regualar scale vs balance board). Did the body test and look it made a difference. It showed my right weight (weight myself on a regular scale before weighting myself on balance baord) said that my BMI/Weight is normal..now my wii fit age is 26 (that's 3+ years added to real age.

Well I'm having so much fun with wii fit...well I better be off now as I'm still playing till now..LOL

What To Expect with Firmware 2.0 (iPhone)

2008-05-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

Got this post straight from Apple iPhone School

BigBoss has a great article on his site explaining “What To Expect with 2.0.” This quickly explains what firmware 2.0 and the AppStore mean for the current jailbroken applications and answers a few Frequently Asked Questions. You will want to check it out!

Excited about Wii Fit

2008-05-18T14:04:00.000-07:00

I'm like so excited because Wii Fit is finally almost here, just three more days. I pre-ordered mine on amazon and it's says that they're going to ship is soon. All I need now is the limited edition MGS4 PS3 pack and I'm all good.

People is New York are so lucky because they're releasing wii fit tomorrow and everyone else gets it on the 21st of May.

Gamestop Sold 2 people all the Wii Fits

2008-05-16T17:02:00.000-07:00

I read on GoNintendo about how one of the Gamestop sold 40 Wii Fit video games each to two people..jeeze people...what happened to the Gamestop pre-order policy. Well I can see that they will be selling them on eBay for sure.

Here's the full story "Why You Can't Buy Wii Fit"

03-05 Days Till Wii Fit (Not sure if it comes out on May 19 or May 21)
14 Days Till My Birthday

TV Show King

2008-05-14T16:44:00.000-07:00

I downloaded the TV Show King (WiiWare) today and I think it's pretty fun..well for me it is. Anyways thought it was like an educational thing because you could learn stuff from playing this game.

I can't decide if I want to get We Ski for Nintendo Wii. I see from surfing the web it looks like it's sold out in most stores. Looking at reviews it looks pretty good and also watching all those videos. Should I get We Ski or should I not?

07 Days Till Wii Fit
16 Days Till My Birthday

WiiWare

2008-05-12T23:52:00.000-07:00

Today WiiWare was release..I don't know what to get..TV King looks fun and Pop..Blackjack..I don't know. They also added new videos and DS Demos. Some have dates on when they're going to remove them, which sucks. I've tried My Word Coach, that was actually fun.

01 day till We Ski
09 days till Wii Fit
18 days till my birthday

Happy Mother's Day

2008-05-11T10:20:00.000-07:00

Let see Ali, Ton Ton, Angelo, Beth, Gerry, Twins, Daniell, Lenny, Liana, Mama Lydia, Romeo, Leonardo and of course me are all here in Mariott Courtyard in Pleasanton, CA. Spent the night. We'll be all going home later in the day. It was Leo's first time swimming in the pool. He was having so much fun even though he was cool. Leo likes water a lot that's why we decided to take him swimming when we got to the hotel. We're going to take him again later in the day before we go.

10 Days till Wii Fit
01 Days till WiiWare
02 Days till We Ski
19 Days till my Birthday

Walmart Done - Wii Fit

2008-05-10T01:14:00.001-07:00

Wii Fit is offically all sold out online.

What do you see??

2008-05-10T01:01:00.000-07:00

Wii Fit Almost Sold Out

2008-05-08T11:03:00.000-07:00

I was looking online to see who still taking pre-orders of the game called Wii Fit. Walmart.com is still taking more. I guess pretty soon they'll be almost done. I don't know if Toysrus (not online) still accepting pre-orders. 13 more days until it releases.

ONLINE RETAILERS OUT OF STOCK
TOYSRUS
TARGET
AMAZON
BESTBUY
CIRCUIT CITY
FRYS
GAMETOP

RETAIL STORES OUT OF STOCK
GAMESTOP
GAMECRAZY

I was online surfing the net until I heard like an alert go off. I was like what the hell...It was my online alert thing for amazon. The wii was on stock...I thought it was the PS3..I was watching how long it will last. It took 30 seconds or more (under 1 minute) for it to go out of stock. I was so amazed on how fast that was. LOL

Nintendo Channel

2008-05-07T18:05:00.000-07:00

The Nintendo Channel was release 5 days early, it was suppose to release on May 12, 2008 along with the WiiWare games. It's better now then later LOL. I checked it out and it was alright. The thing that will make it even better is having wii demos, DS demos are alright.

05 days till WiiWare
06 days till We Ski
14 days till Wii Fit

Wii Fit pre-orders are almost out.

Amazon sold out of Wii Fit

2008-05-05T00:21:00.000-07:00

I check Amazon every single day and I notice that they stop taking pre-orders.

Starting taking orders: Apr. 15, 2008
Stopped taking orders: May 04, 2008

Why I'll spend $90 to buy Wii Fit

2008-05-04T11:25:00.000-07:00

1. It looks fun
2. Fun way to excerise
3. Balance board can be used for other games.
4. Helps you improve your balance
5. Has Yoga (always wanted to try it)

Days Till

2008-05-04T02:29:00.000-07:00

08 days left - Nintendo Channel
08 days left - WiiWare
09 days left - We Ski
17 days left - Wii Fit
26 days left - Happy Birthday to Me

2008-05-04T02:15:00.000-07:00

today there like another person who's hating on the game wii fit. (Amazon forums). Telling fat people that they can go outside for free instead of paying $89.99 for a game. People just don't get it. Its a game that suppose to help you get fit and help you improve your balance. This is not really going to replace all those regular excerise routines. Here's what he said:

"Hey fatties, guess what.. you can walk outside, jog, get some fresh air for $0. On top of this, you can even save money if you'll STOP EATING SO MUCH. Look how beneficial this is: you don't spend $89 on a video game that will let you do virtual situps, and you save $ by no longer going to the all-you-can-eat buffets. Sounds like a plan huh? Unfortunately this is America and people are way too lazy to get off their fat arses and exercise, they'd rather take a pill or move their Wii controller around in a circle while sitting on the couch and claim they are "exercising". Sigh.."

I think this is like a fun way to excerise. Come on overweight people are not the only ones buying it. Me.. I really think I'm underweight...am I? I weight like 110. I think this will be fun.

I'll continue this later. It like really late. 2:30am and not sleeping yet. Which I should be. Sorry if I don't make any sense. I used my iphone to blog. Sometimes it would replace my words.

Ill check it later.

May Already

2008-05-01T07:57:00.000-07:00

Yes it's May...Jeeze I'm like so bored I went to every retail store website who's pre-ordering Wii Fit. Walmart has a page mainly for Wii Fit, Circuit City stop taking pre-orders, Best Buy and Costco still not accepting any pre-orders yet. I'm like way to excited about the game...I think it looks pretty fun. I don't know why some people don't like the game. I mean come on...try it before you open your mouth.

Nintendo Wii is like the best gaming system I ever had. It's like the first game that gets you off the couch. For example: My boyfriend sits on the couch/chair for hours playing call of duty 3 on XBOX 360...LOL...Love you honey...The wii gets you out there..makes your whole body move (depends on what game you play)...it's like your really there..Well for some of the games.

Time goes by so far...which sometimes it's a good thing and sometimes it's a bad (especially when having so much fun), depends on the situation.

Well I better go back to sleep, I woke up so early today.

Excited about Wii Fit

2008-04-30T21:58:00.000-07:00

I'm like so excited because Wii Fit is going to release on May 21, 2008. About 19-21 more days to wait for Wii Fit to be shipped. Trying to keep myself busy busy busy. Well actually I do have a lot of things to do anyways. I have the my online store (RMAGifts), I have North American Motors stuff, house to clean, and play video games LOL.

My birthday is coming up...Jeeze....me....twenty four....already....WOW....
My boyfriend should of bought me the Wii Fit for my birthday instead of the iPhone. The iPhone I could wait forever for.

I should stop thinking about Wii Fit so the time could go faster...LOL

Learn more about wii fit:
Amazon
Nintendo

Jailbreak - iPhone

2008-04-30T15:33:00.000-07:00

I told myself that when I get an iphone I would never unlock/hack into. I remember that year (I think) in the news (I forgot which one) they were talking about how unlocking your iphone can break it forever. So when I finally got my iphone I was having so much fun with it. When to Apple's website started looking through the web apps section. Weeks later just surfing around the net looking to see what other web apps I can add to this iphone (looking at different websites not just Apple's) then I bumped into this website called iPhone Application List. I saw an application called Snapture. Thought it was cool because it was like an updated version on the camera. Was reading all about until I read that the only way you can use this program is to jailbreak your iphone. "Jailbreak" I didn't even know what that was. So I started looking it up everywhere on google. The I saw a video on youtube and how to jailbreak your iphone. Looked complicated they way that person was showing it. So I started to look for more video's on youtube. I saw this one title that was so funny "Jailbreaking you iphone it's so easy a caveman can do it" so I watched it. After watching I kept thinking to myself should I jailbreak it. After hours of thinking I said f*** it I'll just do it, what can happen. I really wanted that Snapture application.

Minutes after downloading I was like that was so easy. Well long story short I got do addicated to it I started downloading so many things.

To jailbreak your iphone go to the link below
(I think this is the best website):
http://download.ziphone.org/

Camera Pro for iPhone

2008-04-30T15:14:00.000-07:00

Professional camera features for your iPhone. Take pictures of yourself with the timer, digitally zoom in on people and objects, burst mode, auto-level and silent shutter. Everything you expect from a digital camera, you can do now with your iPhone.

To get the software, start Installer on your iPhone, press Sources, then Edit, then Add. Next, type http://tinyurl.com/3544mp

The Free version includes:
Digital Zoom
Black & White
Image Size
Auto-orientation
Auto-horizon fix

Premium features (5 times free tryout):
Self-Timer
Burst Mode
Burst Speed
Silent Shutter

Retail $29.95, Sale $19.95

If you would like to purchase let me know eMail

Bought this directly from Makayama and decided that I don't want this anymore. Selling only one to whoever wants it. It said on their website that their promotion will end in June as it will be transfer to that SDK thing from Apple. Then it will go back to $29.95. Get it now while it last.

2008-04-29T18:56:00.000-07:00

I bought Mario Kart on Saturday (Apr. 24, 2007) and got it on Monday. I thought it was pretty cool because it came with the Wii wheel free. It's like $14.99 if you buy it seperately. Been the playing this game everyday now. I'm actually waiting for the Wii Fit which comes out on May 21, 2008. Mario Kart keeping me busy till then.

I preordered Wii Fit when it was first launched on Amazon. I just woke up the one early morning, decided to check Amazon.com on my iphone, and when I saw that they where taking pre-orders of Wii Fit I jumped onto the computer really quick and order one.

That week I pre-ordered many things like Wii Fit yoga mat, We Ski, Mario Kart Wii and Active Life: Outdoor Challenge. Because amazon actually ships your pre-orders about 2 days before it hits the shelfs. Like for Mario Kart, Amazon shipped some on Apr. 24 - 25, 2008. And already a few got their game before Apr. 27, 2008.

Well I gonna go back to play Mario Kart

Games I can't wait to play:
Wii Fit - Aerobics, Yoga, Strength Training and Balance Games
We Ski
We Cheer (Neat, uses two wiimotes, NOT nunchuk - first game to use two wiimotes)
All Star Cheer Squad
Active Life: Outdoor Challenge
Sadness
Wii Music
Peekaboo Pole dancing (Wii Strip) - Looks Fun - Aerobic Excerise

and mostly anything that will use the balance board

So so excited

2008-03-10T22:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday my mother-in-law, son, boyfriend, and I went to Valley Fair to just go out and hangout. Haven't got to Valley Fair in a while. Well anyways long story short as we were going downstairs I told my boyfriend there was an AT&T store and asked him that we should check it out and see if he can add me to his account. Few hours later he got me an Apple iPhone and he got himself a Samsung A737.

So excited that I got iPhone. He was suppose to get the iPhone and I get the samsung. We switch cause he said that he not really going to use all the features of the iPhone. Its so fun to use I can't even stop using it LOL....

Nintendo Wii Fit

2008-01-05T16:41:00.000-08:00

Well I heard Nintendo Wii Fit is coming in Spring 2008. I hope so I really want this game it looks really fun.

Reference:
Nintendo E3 2007
Wii Fit Video Tours
1UP - Game Review
Wii Fit Fans
Wikipedia - Wii Fit

Pre-order Wii Fit
Amazon
Newegg

2008-01-05T16:03:00.000-08:00

Yesturday in the middle of the night I couldn't sleep because you can hear the wind blowing so hard. It was around 7 something in the morning, right after my boyfriend left for work the lights went out. It was raining pretty hard. I called PG&E and the recording said they knew about the outage so it will be back on around 1PM - 3PM. It was like 12 in the afternoon I went out to look for food. As I was driving around I see mostly every fast food resturants closed except McDonald's, Krispy Kreme and In-n-Out. Didn't want any other these so I went to Serramonte. As I was passing by the whole mall looked empty. Only a few people where there. They had no light what so ever I don't know why people are still shopping in this kind of weather. So I decided to go to Burger King. I thought they were open as they had lights but when I pulled in the drive thru it said out of order, no power. So then I turned around and decided to go to Hawaiian Drive In. When I go there they too were close. Every I go had no power at all. So I had no choice but to go to In-n-Out.

Long story short they kept changing the times ever time I called. At first they said power will be back on between 1 - 3PM, then it went to 7 - 9PM, and then to (Saturday 01/05/08)2 - 4AM. We finally had power exactly 4:18AM.

When I went out to get dinner. It was like pitch black whole neighborhood had no power.

New Cell Phone Law

2008-01-02T12:07:00.000-08:00

Minors (under 18 years of age)
VC §23124
are prohibited from driving a motor vehicle while using a wireless telephone, including a hands-free device, and/or a mobile service device (pagers, texting devices, laptops, etc). are prohibited from driving a motor vehicle while using a wireless telephone unless a hands-free device is used.

Exceptions:

emergency situations, for example: calls to law enforcement, health care provider, fire department, etc.
while operating a vehicle on private property

Drivers 18 years of age or older
VC §23123
are prohibited from driving a motor vehicle while using a wireless telephone unless a hands-free device is used.

Exceptions:

emergency situations, for example: calls to law enforcement, health care provider, fire department, etc.

emergency service providers operating an authorized emergency vehicle during the course of employment.
while operating a vehicle on private property.
a person operating a commercial motor truck or truck tractor (excluding pickups), implements of husbandry, farm vehicle, school bus, transit vehicle, or tow truck, if using a two-way radio operated by a “push-to-talk” feature that does not require the device to be close to the ear.

The fines for both laws are:

$20, first offense plus administrative fees.
$50, second or subsequent offenses plus administrative fees.

REFERENCE:
California Department of Motor Vehicles

2007-12-30T21:54:00.000-08:00

WOW....I saw that the last time I was on this was Oct. 11. two months of not blogging anything. Well anyways I had a nice Christmas...LOL my boyfriend bought me a Wii the day after Thanksgiving. I decided I wanted one because there is the ONE game I really really want which was suppose to be out this coming Tuesday (New Years) which I guess been pushed back. Wii Fit is the game I wanted. I thought it was pretty cool cause it a game where you can jog, do yoga, there's more I just can't remember. I know Japan it's already released (Dec. 01, 2007) There are no offical release date for the U.S. People are saying different things like it will be out Jan. 01, 2008, early 2008, spring 2008, and May 20, 2008.

When I first got the Wii I played with it right away and I liked it so much, especially the Wii Sports that came with it. I'm always playing the tennis one or the bowling one. Sometimes I would play the baseball one or boxing (LOL)

Man 2008 is here in like 2 days. Leonardo already going to be 1 year old next month. Still not sure where were going to celebrate it. Well at first we were going to celebrate it at The Jungle. Probably still will but I don't think some of my friends/family won't go all the way to Concord to The Jungle.

Man store is really slow. I think it's because ever since I joined another hosting company. I notice this first company I went for I would always have a sale each month. And when I switched I didn't have anything, zip, nada. Maybe I should switch back.

Well anyways I CANNOT WAIT FOR WII FIT.......LOL

2007-11-27T17:51:00.000-08:00

So excited, I got the Wii today. I bought it on Amazon.com for the retail price ($249.99). Amazon had a promotion for the wii for $79 but the thing it that they give it to random people who voted. It was kinda hard because there are millions of amazon users and only 1000 people can get the wii at that price.

Someone posted on the amazon forums that amazon is selling a few for retail. So I jumped on it right away. But when I got there it was all sold out, was disappointed. So I went back on the forums again and saw people posting on how they knew when a store has them. (they were websites) so I used them. Long story short that's how I got the Wii...LOL

2007-10-11T11:35:00.000-07:00

For four years of selling online I think I'm just going to concentrate mainly in wedding and baby shower gifts/favors. Every since I got my tax ID I started adding new items to my website. Now I have mostly everything you need for your wedding or baby shower. I have favors also for any special occasion. Check it out and see what I have

Specializing in Wedding/Baby Shower

2007-08-13T17:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we (boyfriend, son and mama lydia) went to the filipino fiesta or whatever it's called. When we first went there we went to look at what's good to eat. Saw Nelson there which he was a security guard I guess and he had two girls with him. At first I was like okay who those people because Nelson was like ok I'm gonna go back. I was wondering why. Romeo told him to look for his mom so I showed him where she was at. He couldn't see her so I pointed where she was at. He told her where his mom was sitting. Then few minutes later he said "Oh Lisa there." I was like "what" then he goes "just kidding" then I go "I was going to say" then he said "well that was a long time ago" I was like okay is she there or what. So I went back I saw Romeo took out Leonardo to show those two him. I looked and it was really her. I kept starring LOL because she was short. I thought she would be tall and all but wasn't. She looks real ugly in pictures but pretty in person. Well anyways she was trying not to look at me as I can see. I dont know who was the other girl. Leonardo was crying to I took him from Romeo then he told them to go say hi to his mom. I think Romeo thinks I took Leonardo because I knew that his ex-girlfriend and that I didn't want her to touch/hold him. Well I didn't care if his ex held him or what. Trying to be nice even though she said a lot of shit about me. It was just to funny. Everything, from when Nelson dropped them off to when they said hi to Mama Lydia. LOL, OMG it's just too too funny because after that Romeo was being so nice to me the whole day.

Check Fraud

2007-07-11T20:05:00.000-07:00

Today, right after I got off my doctors appointment I went to Pak n Save to get Leo's food then to Mama Luks then straight home. When I got home I went straight to the computer and first site I went to was WellsFargo to check my account. I logged in looked at my balance and was shocked. It said I was in the neg. I was wondering why so I clicked on my checking accounting. It said I wrote a check for $99.75. Click to view image and when I looked at it, it said I wrote a check to a so called Strong Bucks. Called my bank right away. Long story short got it reverse. I was so pissed when I called. I can't believe someone wrote a check under my name/account. They told me it computerized.

2007-07-07T16:26:00.000-07:00

Well I'm so bored today. I don't know what I should do. Not really in the mood to play on the ds or go online to do something. Maybe I should fold those clothes before the pile up and end up in the closet again LOL. Should take a shower after that. Probably start adding all those Carquest/SP Automotive on Quickbooks. We still need to find a resturant for Leonardo's Christening.

2007-06-25T22:52:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend just bought a BMW M3. I drove it after work and the clutch was pretty damn heavy compared to the Volkswagen Golf. Which is pretty light

2007-06-22T10:20:00.000-07:00

Leo become 5 months on June 12, 2007. He's going so fast. Right now he can hold his head on his own. He started holding his head when he was between 3-4 months. At 4 months he started to also laugh a lot when tickled, talk, play peek-a-boo, etc. Now that's he's 5 months he's starting to crawl. Well he's getting ready to crawl. Yesterday he was on his knees (crawling position) but then seconds later he would fall LOL.

We started feeding him solids when he was about 3 months old. He liked it though. I thought your suppose to feed infants when they can sit up straight. Romeo's mom wanted to feed him at an early stage, it was alright he knew how to eat. It was funny because when we first fed him on Mother's day he would cry. He was crying because they weren't feeding him consecutively. I me like one after another. He wanted to keep going..LOL

2007-05-30T07:00:00.000-07:00

Well todays my birthday I don't think I'm going to do anything today except stay home all day I guess. I don't have work and my bf has work.

2007-05-23T16:26:00.000-07:00

Yesturday was actually the first day he was there all day at the shop. He wasn't feeling all that well on Monday because

Under New Management

2007-05-21T16:23:00.000-07:00

Well today is my boyfriend's first day of running the auto shop. I'm very excited for him. He'll do great in this business.

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2007-05-10T00:35:00.000-07:00

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2007-03-30T21:14:00.000-07:00

When was the last time I ever blogged on this thing. Well I don't remember..LOL. Well anyways I'm like very excited about getting into the vocational nursing program. I trying to get into either NCP Vocational School, Unitek College or Gurnick Academy of Medical Arts. Well I heard that NCP is a good school also Gurnick, Unitek is also good but expensive. I can't even decided which one to go to. I've been to the "All Nursing" forums, myspace (lol), etc. Well anyways I went to NCP school and check it out it looks alright. They have lots of requirements before entering. Like two prerequisite courses that needs to be completed (A&P and General Psychology), 3 recommendation letters, my physical & immunizations needs to be done, pass their entrance test/interview. Haven't done much yet but starting to. I have an appointment with Unitek College this Monday and on Tuesday I have an appointment with Gurnick Academy of Medical Arts. I'll see which one I'll be going to. And hopefully it would be Gurnick or NCP. Wish me the best of luck.

2007-03-05T09:21:00.000-08:00

This morning I think after I changed Leo's diaper I laid him on his stomach on top of me. He kept making sounds and smiling at the same time. It was funny, he was doing that for awhile until he cried...LOL

On Saturday all three of us (bf, son and I) went to Concord to check out the business that my boyfriend might buy. When we got there we ate while checking out the place. It was nice, clean and neat. There was no redecorating to do, nothing. It was nice the way it was. I liked it, but we still need to checkout the books see how it was doing for years. It's a nice location,

2007-03-01T19:39:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we went to Stonestown and just went window shopping nothing much just ate then walked around. Few hours later we sat down to just rest for a bit. Lil Romeo wake up so I was talking to him he was smiling then after that he started laughing. Today also when I was talking to him he was laughing. I think now he's starting to laug when people talk to him.

2007-02-28T12:54:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Romeo was laughing when I kissed him. But when I kept doing it, he didn't laugh. Also now he's starting to lift his head for a couple of seconds then it would go back down again

out

2007-02-13T10:58:00.000-08:00

Today my boyfriend and I took our son out. It was nice and sunny, there wasn't any rain. We just we to Levitz to check out some couches because we're trying to redecorate the living room. Trying to make it look nice.

Today was also the first time lil Romeo drank formula because we went out and I didn't wanna breastfeed in public like always so I decided to give him formula. Everytime we go out somewhere that's what I'm going to give him from now on. I've decide to breastfeed him at home only.

Baby Born

2007-01-29T18:23:00.000-08:00

Well our baby was born 3 weeks early. Born Jan. 23, 2007 @ 5:44pm. He's healthy and everything. Had him in a couple of hours. It was so fast. Got to the hospital at 1pm something.
Nobody was with me. My mom had to work and well my sister in law missed it...LOL she just went downstairs to just check up on her kids and when she came back up I already gave birth LOL. Boyfriend was in the Philippines missed everything, but he took the first flight home and came the next day. Well we named him Romeo Leonardo Ortiz Antonio III. He was names after his ugly daddy LOL and his daddy's mom.

Right now he's like sucking he's thumb for the first time LOL. It's so funny.

01.25.07 The first place we took him was to the Airport because my boyfriend's uncle was leaving for the Philippines then after that it was Jack in the box LOL we got hungry.

01.26.07 His three sisters with their kids came over to the house to visit and see him. We just ate and just watch one of his nephew play video games.LOL

01.27.06 We went to Macy's for one of my co-worker's baby shower. Everyone was there and they all got to see the lil Romeo LOL. After that we went to Marshall's to his first toy and a hamper for his clothing.

4 Weeks Left (8 Months - 36 Weeks)

2007-01-19T19:56:00.000-08:00

Well right now I'm like so tired. I just started my leave of absence yesterday. Thursday was my last day of work and I was like really tired that too. I slept real earlier and woke up sorta late. At work I just kept on sitting on the floor cause my legs/feet were getting tired. Everyone kept saying because my stomach is getting heavier...LOL. I guess that's true. I remember when I went somewhere with my boyfriend on Monday he was asking why I was walking so slow. I told him it's because my stomach is heavier than me...LOL

Well anyways...I miss my boyfriend LOL. He left the Philippines on Tuesday night I think. I wonder what is he doing?? I'm trying to not get bored by doing a lot of stuff. I didn't want him to go because look at me I'm like almost due. Why couldn't he just wait till April because he said he wants to go there for his 1 yr anniversary of his store. Plus I only have 4 weeks left and he's coming back in 2 weeks.

X-Mas Gift Pt. 2

2006-12-25T13:03:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!

Last night my boyfriend was so surprised that I got him the PS3. When he was getting his last present he was like asking why this was so heavy I told him that there are two presents. That he should first open the smaller box, which he thought was clothes because of the shape of it. Once he opened it he was so surprised because it was a PS3 game Call of Duty 3, he opened the heavier one....LOL...He started showing everyone..he got even more surprised because it was the 60GB one.

LOL he kept telling me that he feels bad because I got him an XBOX 360 and the PS3 for Christmas. Well he shouldn't feel bad because LOL he got the 32" Samsung LCD HDTV and clothes for me.

X-Mas Gift

2006-12-17T14:31:00.000-08:00

I think I am spoiling my boyfriend with a lot of things LOL. I buy so much things (mostly expensive) for him but not me. First I bought him an XBOX 360, was suppose to be for Christmas, which he knows about. We were suppose to get it this one day but he got mad about some shit. So I change my mind and didn't want to get it. But I got it the next day when he went to work. Well there's a longer story to that just lazy to type it in. Well anyways I wanted to buy something so he can open it up on Christmas. I didn't even know what to get. Few weeks have past we were having a big sale at Macy's so I looked around to see what's good. I found something, well three things asked my co-workers which was better. They said the electronic one. (don't really want to say what I've got because my boyfriend could be reading all this LOL) Asked one of my co-workers to ring me up, it was so cheap. An $85 went all the way down too I think in the 30s or 40s which I thought was good. It was 40% the original price, I used my co-workers calender discount which was another 20% off then my associate discount, which was 10% off electronic goods....LOL...That's his Christmas gift. Few days have passed, during my lunch break I went into EBGames/GameStop (don't remember which one) looking for games for the XBOX 360. I saw that they get weekly shipments of Sony PS3s and Nintendo Wiis. PS3/Wiis are sold out, check back tues-fri between 1 - 3pm (i think). Got me thinking if I should get one of the systems. Because I made more money online then working at Macy's. I wanted to ask if they had any this week they said no so check back later in the afternoon I was like okay, never mind. I don't want to type anything else right now. That's all I can say due to some secret I have about my bf's present...LOL...Dont want to type anything bout it. To Be Continue After The Holidays....

2 Months To Go

2006-12-15T14:53:00.000-08:00

Time went by so fast...I have two more months to go. Every customer I had are mostly funny. They all mostly say I'm going to explode or that they can't believe I'm pregnant. (Skinny and pregnant) They say from the back I look just like a normail skinny chick but when I turn around everybody get so suprised. It's so funny when I look at everyone's reaction.

Like one of my boyfriend's sister. She was so suprised that I was pregnant because we didn't tell her or his other 2 sisters about me. She suprised me though, I thought she was a customer who need help so I turned around she was telling me that she didn't bring her check for what she bought from me. Few mins later she realized I was pregnant. Told me why we didn't say anything, well I told her that her brother didn't want anyone to know. I don't know why. She was like saying that if we said something they're going to reject me. Well anyways she is so happy, she was all in tears. Almost made me cry just looking at her...LOL.

Well his whole family knows now that I'm pregnant, it just funny because like when we went to one of this sister's house for Thanksgiving someone ask she's really pregnant I guess, my boyfriend laughs and responds "no she just ate too much"

Getting tired of typing so I'm out...

2006-11-14T20:06:00.000-08:00

I haven't wrote in this blog in like a while. Well Sunday in the afternoon my boyfriend and I left for Reno. Stayed there for one night. We arrive there like around I think 7 or 8pm I don't remember ate and then went downstairs at the mid-way to see what's up. Not that many people where there. Just walked then went back to the room. The next day just ate breakfast and then back to the room to rest for few more hours. It was like 1:30p so we were getting ready to get packing. Left the hotel around 2:00p which was freezing cold outside.

After we left the hotel, my boyfriend and I were searching for Washington Mutual for him to deposit money but we couldn't find any. So we decided to stop by Petco to see if they had the exotic animal I liked and always wanted. When we got inside, I saw it right there in front. There were 3 of them 2 grey/white and 1 black/white. I was so excited because I finally got to see on up close. We both got to hold all there. Next thing you know we ended up buying one...LOL...I picked the black/white one. It was like the panda colored one. LOL I'm so happy that I finally got the pet I always wanted for awhile now.

Man it was so scary when we left Reno because it was raining so hard, it was also windy and foggy. My boyfriend was the one who was driving. If that was me I would be driving real slow I mean real slow. Everytime we pass by a truck it, they would splash a lot of water making it more difficult to even see the road.

Well I'm happy and excited about what we brought bak home....

2006-08-09T04:17:00.000-07:00

When's the last time I ever wrote on this....2 months ago...that's long. I can't sleep...like always wats knew...wat i mostly rite about when sometimes bored or upset about. I don't know wat I should do anymore...I'm telling you life sucks...nothing good really comes out. So wats knew, nothing....my boyfriend thinks I'm fucking cheating on him (LIKE ALWAYS, DOES IT EVER CHANGE....NO) Maybe I should let him think that way, it's not going to make any difference. I fucking NEVER cheated, not even once...I love him so much why should I go for someone else. Maybe he's the one cheating on me??? Because he said he was only going to be in the Philippines for just 2 weeks then it extended to 3 then it became 4. Business my ass!!

Sometimes I feel like just leaving, sometimes I can't...been with him for so long I can't even leave. It's like hard because we did so much together and dont really want to mess it up by leaving. Sometimes I swear I should of just left, ALWAYS bringing up the day he left for the Philippines. Saying I cheated on him or I'm like hiding so much shit from him.

2006-06-06T00:48:00.000-07:00

I just hate my life...boyfriend thinks im fuckin cheating on him..my dad is gettinn child support from me and work is getting boring.

Today was like sorta a wierd day. I got so fucking pissed at my boyfriend because he's always thinking i hiding shit from him which im not. Saying that when I hung out with my friend at the mall we were there with guys, My bestfriend is not like that (me either) dnt go to the mall just to hangout with guys.. wat an a* hole. Well anyways I left the house cause I was getting so annoyed that he doesn't believe shit I say so I left. Was trying to walk my ass off all the way to the beach and just cool down. Instead my way there I bumped into Amanda and Kenny at the Westlake area. I thought that was wierd..She saw me crying so asked wat happen just told her that I got into a fight with my bf. Her house was just there, so I went in and said if I wanted to go to workout with her, kenny and Julieanne and said sure because I didn't wanna go home yet. Went to some fitness center in Almany however it's spelled. Workout for few hours and then they took me home. Juliane told me that must of been so pissed to walk so far from home. I told them to come with me inside because I know my bf so well, I know he's gonna asked that I been with a fucking guy. Can he get it in his fucking head that I'm so happy to be with him. Ahh who cares he can kiss my fucking ass for all I care. When I finally found the right person for me, turns out that this relationship could be fake. What's THE POINT OF GOING OUT WHEN YOU CAN FUCKING TRUST ME ALWAYS SAYING LIES COMES OUT OF MY MOUTH. FOR THE STUFF I BOUGHT YOU THAT, DOES THAT MEAN SHIT TO YOU. ALSO THE SHIT I DO,

What's the fucking point of having a boyfriend whos always thinking im always lying

Atlantis Casino

2006-05-23T21:15:00.000-07:00

Yesturday my boyfriend and I just got from Reno. After his Bay to Breakers thing we went to Reno stayed one night at Atlantis Casino. It was fun also when going back home. We took the long way home. While going back home we did some sightseeing at Lake Tahoe. Well anyways I got nothing more to say so I'm out.

Online Store

2006-05-18T23:23:00.000-07:00

Well anyways been real busy updating my store. It's not even done yet..it's like taking me a long time...LOL..well anyways I mostly got jewelry and personalized gifts. I see a few people entering, but not buying anything...it's alright..it's still new and still being updated at the moment. Im like so bored..I think I've repeated myself a few times on this...LOL..Well anyways gotta get back to work

RMAGifts (named after my BF LOL)

2006-05-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

LOL I bought a laptop for my boyfriend but im like the one mostly using LOL..it was really cheap too. I was like to happy when it finally came..Well i mostly use it for m online business.

2006-04-22T01:38:00.000-07:00

Its like 1am and I can't believe he doesn't even believe anything I say to him...always thinking without asking me first. Well for the past week I guess w been fighting about my 2 friends. He thinks I'm cheating on him with one of them which isn't true at all.. What's the point of gng out if he will always thinking I'm always lying to him. Its like this 1 song I heard, the guy thinks his girl is cheating on him which isn't true...if he keeps it up, she will end up
cheating on him.

Gosh doesn't him know I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!! I NEVER, NOT EVEN ONCE have i cheated on him. I would never in my whole life would never cheat on him with someone else.

Gosh today my friend hak just fucking asked what im i doing..and i knew he was gonna get mad bout it...he brought it up again...telling me that im hiding shit frim him...WHAT THE FUCK IM NOT FUCKING HIDING SHIT...FUCKING NOTHING AT ALL...THIS SHIT IS GETTING ME FUCKING PISSED OFF BECAUSE HE DOESNT BELIEVE ONE FUCKING WORD I'M SAYING.

I KNEW HE NOT GOING TO BELIEVE ANYTHING..MIGHT AS WELL LEAVE HIM IF HE DOESNT TRUST OR BELIEVE ANYTHING I SAY.

Being in a relationship is all about TRUSTING EACH OTHER. And if he cant do that with me..then he cant be with me at all...im just so pissed at the moment. Of all the guys i been with...he was the only one i truly love the lost and i would to lose him because he doesnt trust me at all.

I know EXACTLY what you gonna say if i wanted to break up. "YOUR NO DIFFERENT FROM ALL THE GIRLS I BEEN WITH. THEY ALL CHEATED ON ME. I CANT STOP YOU BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH..." He will always i mean always think that way.

I MARILYN FUCKING DAVIS NEVER FUCKING SLEPT WITH NO FUCKING GUY(S) EVER SINCE OR EVERYTIME HE GOES TO THE FUCKING P.I. I BEEN ALWAYS MOTHER FUCKING FAITHFUL ALL THIS FUCKING TIME...MOTHER FUCKER THIS IS FUCKING GETTING ME FUCKING PISSED AS HELL...

I CANT FUCKING SLEEP...

My new T-Mobile MDA

2006-03-22T17:00:00.000-08:00

O Man when was the last time I ever wrote on this LOL...Like last month I think. Well anyways I'm so happy and excited because I finally got the phone I wanted LOL. The T-Mobile MDA. It's like my little pocket size laptop, which mostly has everything a computer have. LOL...I'm like to into my new cell LOL...I remember I went to hangout with my friend and he told me that I'm so into my cell. LOL we didn't even do much not even talk much LOL because I was mostly paying attention to my new phone...It's like a combination of mostly everything put into one. It's a cell phone with a built in camera w/flash, internet, it even has windows (Microsoft office), and much more...LOL. I took so many different pictures of Kona and Romy (two of my little sweet babies)

Man it's like sorta boring because I don't have work today. I wanted to go to Sacramento to look at there malls but I got up to late. Well anyways I got nothing else to say so I'm out.

Tommy Hilfigier Specialist

2006-02-08T23:41:00.000-08:00

This is my first week back to work. LOL my seasonal position was terminated few weeks ago and now I got rehired as a specialist for Tommy Hilfigier. Man I've got to know everything ago tommy hilfigier fashion watches before this Sunday because I meeting the Tommy manager that day

2005-11-20T23:20:00.000-08:00

Today was my first day at work. I have fun...I know there was this one girl who just started a day before me and she said she forgot mostly everything. LOL and she said that I know more than her. I did a lot today, like bring up people's items, returns, payments for their card and probably more. I started like 9AM, I opened registers, had to ask people for help because didn't really know how to open the registers. LOL. I guess I had a fun day at work. There were a lot of people but not a whole lot. Man time went by fast. I stayed there for almost 8 hours I think or more.

2005-11-11T12:11:00.000-08:00

I swear why can't all guys just be honest about something. I'm so tired of being in a relationship like that, where someone is hiding or lying about something. Why can't I just be a relationship where someone is always telling you the truth about something no matter what. ALWAYS OPEN!!!! gosh...

I'm so bored right now...I have a quiz today but really lazy in doing it right now. I didn't even get started with my homework either but it's due next week I think on Wednesday. I totally forgot about my CAOT homework. I came to school really late on Wednesday I didn't even know we even had a quiz good thing I came. I wasn't even gonna go. And shit I even forgot about the homework to. Shit owel, I just hope that on my quiz I get an A. Well I usually do anyways, not going to worry about it. Shit well anyways, I did do part of it but I so fucking forgot my stupid memory stick, should of given her part of it. At least I'll get some credit instead on none.

2005-11-09T16:19:00.000-08:00

Yesturday I have an on-roll appointment and MBT training. The On-Roll appointment was just 30 mins or less, just filling out paperwork. The MBT training man that took so long and still not finish. 5 of them were 30 mins long and the POS was 4-5 hours long. Cool at least now I know how to use a cash register. I was sorta having fun doing that, I sorta lost track of time. Didn't know it was already 9:30PM when I left. Well I have an orientation in an hr. I got to get ready

2005-11-04T10:34:00.000-08:00

Le puits qu'il a oublié, je l'a su. Ne s'inquiète pas vraiment me devinent que nous étés ensemble pendant une année.

2005-11-02T16:28:00.000-08:00

I only have two-three classes right now. Well the third one doesn't start till Nov. something, I don't remember. Well anyways today is NOV. 02. It's been a year now that I been with ugly...LOL. I think I will do my homework. I'm sorta bored at the moment. I finally filed a compliant with that yahoo auction site, because that one dude I bought nanos from never shipped them.

2005-10-25T14:04:00.000-07:00

That person just emailed me yesturday about the repairs and he wants me to pay $233 for broken parts and labor. I was like what...I rather take that chance of losing one customer than to pay for it.

Man...I'm so bored

2005-10-24T06:50:00.000-07:00

Man I didn't sleep much again. I seriously got 2 hrz of sleep and can't believe I'm not sleepy at all. Well FINALLY my bf's coming back. Dude it's been like how long wat a loser. Well anyways I'm so happy that he's finally gonna go home. I have to get ready for school soon.

OMG I don't know what I should do. One of my customers is telling me that I should pay as least $100 for the repairs because his warranty has expired. He told me that I should at least do it or least he'll report me for selling him a so called faulty item. Well actually I guess it is, it's a recondition one that why. And if I don't do he, he told me not only will I lose a customer, he'll report me to the BBB and eCrater and that he'll try his best to tell as much people as possible not to buy anything from me, I was like what. Dude he's tripping, because I even put it up on the FAQs, that all brand new items and 1 year warranty and recondition items have 90 days. I don't know what I should do?? I think I'll just take that chance of losing that person and being reported. Well he's the only one that was complaining about something. Everyone else was happy no question asked.

Well anyways, I have a lot to do today. Like clean this house, well I cleaned it like yesturday just want it to be clean everyday LOL. Groceries OMG, ummm...well I have a lot of time to do everything anyways. It's always 7AM, which doesn't seem like it, because it's still dark outside. Well I got to get ready to go to school.

2005-10-19T17:31:00.000-07:00

I didn't go to school today. Didn't feel like it because, well this guy who sits next to me always asked, is your boyfriend back yet. I would always say no. Which is so getting to me. I already have so much things in my head. He was suppose to be here on Monday but he said he couldn't aboard because illegal issues. So he said he will be here on Tuesday, he said he was having problems with his ticket, he had to approve something or pay extra. Now it's like Wednesday and I don't know if he's even coming. I bet he has something else to say for today. I will so get mad, because already delayed about 2 weeks already and still not here. I txt him and said just call or txt me when your really coming here. Gosh I'm so mad right now and upset, because it's been about two weeks and still not here.

Well anyways I'm sorta bored right now.

I'm hungry, I didn't eat anything yet since 6AM and it's like what 5:45PM. Well I think I might just eat out later. To lazy to go out right now.

2005-10-17T00:55:00.000-07:00

Man I have school in a few hours, not really sleepy yet. Man I have to sell my boyfriend's gift which really sucks ass. Don't wanna do it, but I have to. My mom came over the house, she didn't come in. We were talking outside, she was telling me that Kylel medical expired or something and that my dad took him because of what my sister said. My mom got mad so she's kicking my sister out of the house. I didn't know my older sister moved out of the house already. Well anyways that doesn't matter. My mom told me that I got really skinny, how the hell could people see that. LOL I remember when I came back from the Philippines my aunt told me I gain weight. I couldn't even tell, I looked the same. Well I could tell if I'm getting skinner. She also asked me how come I never left the house. She thought my boyfriend is restricting me from going out. I told her that's not true. Told her just scared to go out and see anyone.

Well anyways my boyfriend isn't here yet, said he's coming on Tuesday. I don't know if that's for sure. Because he said that few weeks and looked he never came. Said his doctor didn't give him clearance to aboard the plane so he had to stay for few more days. Why am I not all that happy/surprise or whatever, that he's coming back. I guess I was having so much fun living all by myself in this house. Seriously I don't know why, I even txt that he could stay there as long as he wants as long as he comes back. Man I remember I would get mad for staying there longer than he suppose to. OK what the hell happen to me. I remember I would get so excited everytime he calls, txt or email me. I guess I just got used to staying here by myself without anyone else here. I been in this house all by myself without anyone. I usually get all paranoid because I would thinks about a lot of things. Well I got to go to sleep soon, I have to go to class in a few hours.

I guess I'm just stressing on a lot of things, that it's affecting my mood. Look I couldn't even concentrate in school, I'm about to fail both my classes. Which I am about to drop. I don't want to finish a whole semester and know that I can't even catch up. Attendance counts in biology, and for accounting I have been doing those weekly internet search or weekly Wall Street Stuff. I'm only doing the homework and sometimes doing the quizzes. I missed 3 quizzes in the past three weeks already. I just don't like the teacher, she doesn't really teach you anything. I'm basically teaching myself, which I'm sorta kinda a slower learner. Not really explaining the work, how she does it or how she even got those numbers. It's really all that clear, she mostly talks about her life story. My accounting prof. in summer school was even much better in explaining everything so clearly. OMG it's almost two, I've got to go to bed soon. IF I could sleep, I been having so much trouble sleeping lately. Last night I didn't even sleep till 4AM. The cats looks so peaceful when sleeping. They can sleep better than me.

LOL it's like Kona is getting so attached to me, because she would follow everywhere I go. To the bathroom, downstairs, bedroom, etc, always by my side. When I'm watching tv, shes either on my lap, laying on top of me or right next to me, she'll always be right there. When I come home she's right by the door waiting for me to come in. OMG why I'm I getting so emotional about this. I guess I just like it when shes always there. Well anyways I think I might go to bed. Damnmit I got homework that I've got to do first. Nights

2005-10-13T00:06:00.000-07:00

Four days have passed and still not home. I bet he's not going to come back till next week. Which technically he's been there for a month. I can believe I'm waiting for his ass to come back, which is making the days go by really slow. For those two - three weeks alone here, I just pretend I'm the only person who lives here no one else. Didn't really care what's going on out there. I never left this house except go to and from school mostly. Right after school I just got straight home. The pass three and a half weeks I miss probably two-three of my accounting and biology class. And once for my business class. I just cant concentrate on anything. Mostly been sleeping late and waking up so damn freaking early. I would have 3-4 hours of sleep a day. Which is not good. O man and the worst one of all is I would eat one or twice a day, just soup, burritos, and bagel. OMG I GOT TO START EATING. IM NOT EATING RIGHT, RIGHT NOW, WHICH IS BAD. I think I lost a lot of weight. Well that it for now, getting really tired.

2005-10-11T15:13:00.000-07:00

Ok the time is NOW going slow that the hell. I'm still upset, very upset still crying. Before he left, said he'll try to come back earlier but no he didn't. I guess I said he could stay there for the full three weeks and just take care of everything. Well now three weeks has pass and still not home because he got sick. Well i don't blame him but I just wanted him home soon. Well that's all I'm going to say, I'm like all crying when typing.

2005-10-10T23:29:00.000-07:00

Well he didnt come back like i wanted him to. Didn't get clearance from the doctor so he's stuck there for few more days, but I betcha he's coming back next week. Was crying almost the whole day. I felt better after watching this one show, which kept making me laugh. It actually took my mind off of things. So I'm alright now I guess but still want him home school. The days are now going slow for me, cause I don't know what I should do. It's like that one week when I was alone here. Oh gosh I'm going to start crying.

Well I was suppose to call him earlier but I told him that I'll talk to him tomorrow because I have to study for a study I'm going to have next week and a quiz that I'm going to have on Wednesday. I actually didn't wanna talk because I was still upset just didn't want him to know that. I'm still upset right now, couldn't really sleep so I was watching shows the whole time to get my mind off of things

2005-10-10T06:32:00.000-07:00

I didn't even sleep much, well I only had I guess three hours of sleep again. I guess I was waiting for a call to see if he's even coming today or not. He told me he needed clearance for a doctor to be able to fly in the plane. He's sick that's why. I tried going back to sleep back but I can't. It's like 6:30AM right now and I have school a few hours. I think I might try to go back to sleep, I'm still tired.

Is he coming today or what?.......

2005-10-07T12:39:00.000-07:00

Man I didn't even sleep that much. I slept at around 5AM and woke up at 8AM. Had to go to school that's why. I'm not sleepy, I thought I would be because I only had three hours of sleep. I'll take a nap later..LOL making it sound like I'm a little kid.

I swear if I don't get the other two apple ipod nanos today Iwill get so mad. I was complaining a few days ago asking if he already shipped the two. Told me he shipped it Monday of this week and so I should be receiving it by Friday. If it doesn't arrive, then he'll check to see what's the delay. Well I need them by Monday that's why.

I'm getting hungry, I think I might go eat right now.

BTW: I'm selling an apple ipod nano 4GB, it's black, hasn't been used. Box was the only one open. I'm also throwing in the bag that came with it. Click here to start bidding

Dream 2/How we met

2005-10-05T09:59:00.000-07:00

I swear I keep having dreams about him..at least its not as bad as the other day. I just have so much feeling for him that why. I remember when we first met, LOL, I wanted to buy a car because I needed one to get to and from somewhere. My mom was getting hers repoed. I hate when she does that, we already lost more than 5+ cars..LOL. not paying on time. Well anyways I went to where he worked talked bout how I am going to finance..after that we took a look at the cars, I told him that I always wanted to drive a manual, LOL he asked me if I had a few mins, I was like okay..yea..Told me we were going to talk one of the cars to teach me how to drive one. I was like o'shit..he's really going to teach me..LOL..drove to Monster Park (Candlestick Park) to find an empty parking lot. I drove around for less than I guess 20-25 mins. I don't remember, so then we headed back to the car dealership. I cut a whole lot of things, I mean a whole lot. Like how we started talking, how he asked me to have dinner with him..LOL that was the funniest part how he asked me. I thought that was cute...LOL. I don't want to go into too much details this was a long day, so yea. Well anyways I didn't want to go home yet, but I had to because it was my brother's birthday. So I said bye to him, I don't remember if I gave him a hug and thank him for teaching me how to drive a manual. Few mins later the car didn't start, I was like o' shit not again. Well not really again. The day before that while I was hiding home the car stop, well it's because the gas tank was empty. And I got in trouble from that because my older sister didn't believe me, I told her no gas, got stuck, then she said "don't lie to me, if your seeing a guy, just tell me, don't lie about that the car stop" Well anyways back to the story, I got out of the car and told him that the car isn't starting, so he check it out. Blah Blah Blah did everything he could so he called AAA to come and tow it to my house. While waiting for AAA to come we started talking some more. Damn we been talking for I guess a couple of hours and still AAA didn't come. It was getting cold so we head back to his office. Sorta talked in there, headed back to the car see if it's going to work again. So I did, I tried it again and it finally work, few mins later AAA came. I was like okae, finally comes when the car finally works. He told me that he's getting out of work soon and that I should wait for him so he can follow me home to see if I get there safe. Got home, went inside, talked to my sister again, because she got mad again, asked told her that I'm going to eat out with him and asked if I can bring him upstairs. Said no..so I went back out asked him sorry that I can't because my older sister said no. Dude I was 20 years old I should of taken off. LOL...O well. So I apologized that I can't go and said bye, was about to leave but he grab me, hugged me and gave me a kiss in the cheek, sort of..almost close to my lips...LOL. I thought that was going to be the last time I will ever see him. I called him twice, answering machine came on, so I hung up. My younger sister was going to her boyfriend's game the next day so I emailed him instead to ask if he wanted to go. and blah blah blah...it continues the next day...LOL..It was 1 1/2 long days with him, but it was the best time in my life. That was almost a year ago, it's going to be a year this month on the 28th of October when we first met. But next month a year being together.

That day I first so him, I'm going to take that as a sign that he's the one for me. The person I want to stay with for the rest of my life. The part when the car didn't start and it finally starts when he's getting off work. We tried it a couple of times before that and it still didn't work. Because I remember when I wrote in my spiral number thing. Because I love writing no matter what. I remember crying and writing at the same time saying that why can't I be like my two sisters. (One's married and the other who's been with her bf for 4 years now. ) Who are both happy with who they're with. It makes me so jealous because I can't seem to find someone like that for me. I even said that NOT to go back with any old boyfriends and that I should start off with someone NEW. I said I want someone who would love me for who I am not for my looks...LOL or my ass...even my eyes. I said that I want them to find me, not me looking for them..LOL I even prayed to god that I want that person to find me, not me looking for them. And that I want someone who is funny, respectful, honest, blah blah blah (what I want in a guy). I even wrote down things what I should be doing anymore like mess around with someone else when with someone already. I promise myself a lot of things, then signed it at the bottom...LOL I'm such a dork. Man I can't find that notebook anymore, I use to write down everthing I want to write about, that how much I love writing. No I don't want to be a write, yea right, I can't even make up a F***ing story...LOL. I think my older sister wrote down all her kids things in there like when they were both, when's the first of everthing.

Sh** I have school in an hr. I didn't go to my first to classes. This one I HAVE to go because, part of your grade is being there. The other two classses it not. Man this is like the longest blog I ever wrote. If I didn't cut any part of how we met, this blog would probably longer. Well I'm out, gotta take a shower before it's to late. Damn did it really take me an hr to type this whole thing??

5 MORE DAYS TILL HIS ASS COMES BACK...

Sony clie peg-th55

2005-10-03T15:46:00.000-07:00

This thing is so cool. I'm typing on a Sony Clie Peg-TH55. Itook me a long time to figure out how to use this. Especially going online, which was sorta complicated.

Well seven more days till he comes back. I can wait to see him again. I tried calling him back yesturday but no one was picking up. So I text him back, still no reply so I went to sleep instead. I think I'll call today, later though. It's so early to call him anyways.

Man I a test for marine biology. I have to study for this one because all those surprise quiz, I failing each and one of them. I'm not reading the book thats why. Well the test is on the 17 of October so I shuld get my ass started soon. Well it only Ch. 1-3, 10 and 16. They're short chapters but still got to study.

Dream/Apple iPod Nanos

2005-10-02T13:21:00.000-07:00

OMG I woke up this morning crying, My dream felt like it was very real or something. It was like me watching a very sad movie. It was about my BF and I traveling somewhere...and blah blah blah. Don't want to really talk about it, it was to sad.

Does my dream mean the I really love my boyfriend that much? Well I miss him a lot, haven't seen him for two week now. LOL It was like wired, I don't know but yea it was really wired. I heard that when your dreaming about something, it means something.

Well anyways, man the time is going by really fast. (Which is suppose to be a good thing at the moment)I had my final exam for one of my classes yesterday, I guess it went by alright. It was my last day there. That class was very short, it was from Sept. 10 I think to Oct. 1.

One week left till my BF comes back from his trip, so happy because I got him something for him for his birthday which past about a month ago. I got him one of the Apple iPod Nanos 4GB. Well I have three, two is going to his friend because he wants them and so I have one left which is going to my bestest friend in the whole wide world, my BOYFRIEND...LOL. I'm trying to get more to sell it. Right now it's out EVERYWHERE and got to wait 2+ weeks for more to come in. At first I was just gonna get him the iPod Shuffle because it was small and he didn't need that much space for music. I wanted to get it a long time ago because everytime he goes out for a run, he would carry that CD player of his. So then I thought maybe I should just get him an iPod with an armband so he doesn't have to hold anything. While he was gone I went looking for one, while I was looking for one I hear that the Apple iPod Nano came out. I was like ok what that, so I did so research on it. It was much better than the shuffle so I started looking for the iPod Nanos instead. Retail price for iPod Nano 2GB was $199 and the 4GB was $249. I was like ok I'll just get the 4GB your just paying $50 more. LOL I was so cheap I wanted to find one that was under $200 because, well that was my spending limit anyways. I wanted a brand new, factory sealed one..I could find any so I was about to give up until this one person respond to me. LOL took money out and went out and got it right away. Man I see people willing to buy a iPod none $250+ because it's sold out everywhere. Man there was others you were selling it below retail, like $170 or below for 4GB. I emailed each and everyone one of them, most all said "sold it but you can get one free at this website" I was like oh F*** no they just trying to refer you so they can get a free one. (LOL I'm doing that already)

Well anyways that my story of trying to find an apple ipod nano for my BF. I'm got homework to do, do I better do it now.

Virus in Emails

2005-10-01T18:25:00.000-07:00

I swear people this days are trying to give me a virus on my computer. Everytime I look at my email with an attachment I just delete if I don't know them. Well there was once this one time I opened, it said virus found do not download file. I was Oh s*** that was close. I had several emails today the exact same thing. They want you to download something on your computer. Both my mailbox and computer has an anti-virus thing. You never one it's those spyware crap. Recording every key you type. I mean everything you type, from logging into something or whatever. Once you log in to something they will alway have access to it too. It actually record everything your do. I tested that shit on this computer. That thing really record everything you do, keystocks, password, etc..

Well it's already been two weeks now. I have one more week to see my bf again...OMG finally. I hate being alone in this house. LOL I told him what I got him yesterday, which was not good..lol, it was suppose to be a surprise. Well anyways....man those ipod nanos are selling out fast. It just came out like a few weeks ago and now they are sold out everywhere...damn...Now others have to wait for I think about TWO weeks to come out again. Man I went to EBay and they're selling over retail price. People are paying a lot just to get one, well I guess they can't wait. I was so lucky to get mine.

I sell them on my store too but shipment will take about 1-2 weeks. I'm been trying to find a different distributor but most of them said it will take 7 more days for it to ship, I can't really wait that long.

Man I got a bad score of my mid-term, couldn't really study. I didn't really I mean really bad on Part One, but Part Two...LOL it was the opposite. I did so much I mean so much better than Part One. Well it because I started that class late I was behind a lot.

Hummingbird

2005-09-25T17:20:00.000-07:00

Today I don't know which cat caught the hummingbird. It was bigger than the one they caught last time. I was just upstairs studying for my exam and all of a sudden I hear something like sqeeuing. So I went downstairs and saw both of them messing something. At first I thought it was a bat/rat or something LOL...I didn't know what to do so I like got some mail and throw it next to both cats so they can get scare and run off. Which work, next thing I knew that hummingbird was standing up straight I thought it was gonna fly around the house. So I took one of my boyfriend hat (sorry baby) and put it in there. LOL I didn't wanna touch thing. So I went outside and try to let it go, but it didn't. So I left it on top of those bushes outside. Till now it's still out there. I guess it's really hurt, I don't know what to do. The only thing I can do is keep it away from the cats.

FREE XBOX 360/4GB BLACK IPOD NANO

2005-09-24T09:58:00.000-07:00

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All you have to do it just sign up, complete and offer and refer other people to do the same, it's that simple.

Few weeks later I received a nano. If your really good referring people shoot you can get a nano within a few days. Right now I'm doing it with the XBOX.

XBOX 360 or the iPod 4GB Nano

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Lighting all day

2005-09-20T16:03:00.001-07:00

Today was like scary...Well for me it is...It was like 1:00 in the afternoon...I saw a light flash...I was like ok who's taking pictures. Few seconds later a heard a very loud lighting/thunder or whatever it is. The cats got scared so they ran back home...LO> one hide under the bed and the other was next to me. It's like 4 something right now and it's still making all that noise. Sometimes it would rain and sometimes it would stop. Well I guess I'll get the flashlight and candles ready just in case the power does go off. LOL I'm like all scared at the moment because I'm all by myself with the cats.

NO TITLE

2005-09-13T22:50:00.000-07:00

I haven't wrote anything for a long time in this thing. Well I have been so busy with a lot of things. Man chapter 7 is sorta hard and been studying most of time trying to learn it very well. Let's see so far life is going alright I guess. Nothing new...just same ol shit. Like school and work. Well I work at home trying to process orders or updating the website. Just getting ready for December I guess. I wanted to put as much as I can into the site. I'm so bored at the moment...I don't really have much to do except study. I have a quiz this Friday on chapter 7..damnmit...well im out latez...

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Opened a New Store

2005-09-06T18:26:00.000-07:00

Well I just opened another store, it's called Engravable Gifts. You get to personalized items that are in the store. This took me the whole entire day to set up. I had to add all the products are are available to engraved. Check it out

Engravable Gifts

bored

2005-09-04T13:48:00.000-07:00

I haven't blog anything for awhile now. Well I guess it's because I been so busy with everything like school and been updating my website, just putting up new items like the glass figurines. I might start selling items that you can engrave things on whatever. Well anyways I have to study and do other things to.

Raccoons in the back

2005-08-27T13:01:00.000-07:00

OMG yesterday I got so fucking scared because of five raccoons in the backyard. I was like in the couch watching TV and taking notes. All of a sudden I hear something playing with the flap of the cats door. So I went to check it out...and when I did I didn't even see anything out there so I went back to work. Few minutes later I heard it again...so I did the same thing and still didn't see anything so I went back again to work. Few mins later I heard that shit again...I got so mad so I checked what the fuck that was and when I did I saw 5 raccoons trying to get into the house. I freak out and told my bf...both when downstairs and saw them still trying to get in. He told me those are just the young ones, that the adult ones are much much bigger than that.

Bored

2005-08-23T20:52:00.000-07:00

When's the last time did I blog...last week...well any I been so busy...LOL not really..so bored.

so bored..

2005-08-18T18:53:00.000-07:00

Today I was so bored so I been working on my other blog thing...I just added a new questionaire thingy. Well anyways...yea I just finish it now I'm gonna go take a nap for a bit.

School just started

2005-08-17T18:15:00.000-07:00

Well fall semester has started today..I didn't get to go to one of my class and it's the first day. Well anyway I went to my Marine Biology class and I think I would have a great time in that class. The teacher seems very cool, might make it a fun class. I'm starting to like the class a lot. Well it's because it's marine biology..I love to study marine life, it's like fun. I'm only taking I think about three to four classes. Man I so need a freaking job...I can't stand doing nothing. Good think I'm starting school cause if I didn't I would probably so get so bored and irritated because I'm not doing nothing. I got to get very occupied so I don't get all crazy and shit...LOL. I was going to take 18 units but my BF told me that that's to much. So I ended up dropping 3 classes. Well I guess I got to see if I can handle more than 12 units. I'll slowly see if I can handle it. Right now I'm taking four classes, so next semester I'm going to take five, than six next semester and so on.

OMFG see I knew it that he was gonna go back to the Philippines, I know I'm gonna get ******* bored again. Dude when he went to the PI I ended up doing finishing the whole book. LOL see I just need something that will get me occupied the whole day so I won't go all crazy and shit. I said that like how many times...I don't know I just like going to school. I hated high school so much but college is different, I don't know, I just like it a lot...

LOL I was sorta bored in class today..so I started calculating how long will it take me to graduate, How many units I should take every semester plus summer, and etc. LOL I'm such a dork. Man I should have taken a math classes, I just love math. I really hate English and History. Well I'm going to make it fun some how.

People

2005-08-09T18:35:00.000-07:00

people are like audio books... you just have to listen and read along.

Time

2005-08-06T18:31:00.000-07:00

life is all about timing... timing is everything... one second too fast and you can pass right by... one second too slow... and you might be too late. you can't plan perfect timing... it just happens... and when it does... you thank destiny your timelines crossed.

-Jonny Angel

Distance

2005-08-04T18:36:00.000-07:00

Distance can really hurt a relationship. i cannot stand long distance. so what is considered long distance? across the country? state? city? maybe long distance is out of arms reach. if i cannot stretch my arms out and hold you tight.. then you are just too far from me.

-Quoted from Jonny Angel

What is Love??

2005-07-29T12:29:00.000-07:00

Love is not a test...it is not a game...Love is faith...and trust...love is love...It can't be determine by one right answer...it is proved through actions...Through all the little things you do you someone...

Just because you can say the right things...doesn't mean it is love...just because you memorized all their favorite food...or know their favorite color...that is love.

Love is...caring for someone so much that their happiness is worth a lifetime of pain for you...Love is that feeling...that there is no ont in the world better for you than they are...Love is absolute trust...and faith...in each other...because love is knowing that they feel the same way too...

-Jonny Ngo

Never

2005-07-29T12:24:00.000-07:00

Never say I love you
If you really don't care
Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there
Never hold my hand
If you are going to break my heart.
Never say you are going to
If you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie.
Never say hello
If you really mean goodbye.
If you really mean forever
Then say you will try.
Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry.

In a Relationship

2005-07-28T11:38:00.000-07:00

What a girl needs most is love. What a guy needs most is respect. The most important thing for a girl is her heart. For a guy its his ego.

Give your man his own time and space. Let him have his time for his friends, sports, family, self, and God. The relationship will grow old quickly if lagi kayong magkasama. Give him time to miss you and you'll see how he will love you more. If the guy naman is obsessed and just wants to be with you all the time, tell him you cant respect a "puppy" for long.

Do things differently anytime. Para kahit matagal na kayo, there is always something fresh and new. Variety is the spice of life. Exciting baga?

Discover something you both like to do and enjoy it TWOgether. Doon naman sa mga bagay na magkaiba ang hilig nyo, compliment each other by learning about it kahit konti. If you love someone, yung effort nyo to try will go a looooong way to
understanding him later pag may disagreement kayo.

Pray with holding hands. Sounds corny noh? Maybe, but its very powerful. Pag may takot sa Diyos ang boyfriend,mo, kampante ka na di ka nya lolokohin, because he knows God sees everything he does in secret. Ikaw na ang magkusa that before you part after date, with hold hands and eyes closed, pray to God to bless you two. Believe me it's effective.

Kailanman, di corny ang magdasal.

Believe in "Magic". Kahit di minsan practical o walang logical na dahilan, o matrabaho, o sounds crazy sa iba, do sweet little things for the one you
love kahit magmukha ka ng timang. The memories will be fun to recall later in life. The corniest song o gift o letter ang laging kabog!

True love brings out the best in each other. Find something good in your boyfriend and nurture it, encourage it and syempre, ENJOY it.

It's healthy to fight. Doon nyo lang maaayos ang mga differences nyo at natetest ang tatag ng relationship. Doon mo rin sya makikilala ng mabuti. Its called test of fire. Di mahalaga how dalas you fight. What matters is how often you make bati. Mas nakakatakot yung relasyong sobrang perfect at laging masaya. One big fight and that's it! And diba mas kilig yung malambing na... "uy, bati na tayo...".

But don't overdo it. Kakapagod naman din na lagi na lang manuyo o magsori. Choose the battles na papatulan mo. The little issues, palampasin na. Don't sweat the small stuff.

Daraan sa iba't-ibang stages ang love especially pag matagal na kayo. Grow with it. Don't expect him to be like nung una. 'Coz like a student, di na ituturo sa grade 6 yung lessons na pang-grade 2. Change WILL happen... you both will change and
your love WILL change too. It's up to you na lang if the change will be for the better or for the worse. Life is about growth. Grow with it.

When break up comes and it's time to say goodbye, don't doubt the love just because it didn't last. May mga bagay sa buhay na di man nagtatagal, it doesn't mean di na ito totoo. Some good things are just never meant to last forever. Okay lang yon. Bless the parting and move on.

Expect tears, sorrow, sleepless nights and pain. Ika nga "it's when you hurt the worse that you love the MOST." Kung di ka willing masaktan, wag ka na lang magmahal.

Life is a balance. And love is both holding on and letting go. Know when to fight for your man and when to let him go. God will guide you kung anong dapat gawin sa kung anong sitwasyon. So dapat mataas ang signal ng langit sa cellfone ng puso
mo to know His wisdom.

Just another day of sadness

2005-07-27T10:08:00.000-07:00

Hola people,
Well today I'm done with my final. I probably did bad but I study for two days. Last day of class is tomorrow then I have about three weeks vacation then back to school. Jeeze I so need a job. Well Palmeers Career keeps emailing me that I'm perfect for the accounting assistant position. I just hate interviews though LOL. I hate going thou that shit, they just want to make sure about everything.

Gosh why am I so upset about everything now a days. I don't know why..All I want is be with someone for the rest of my life with no problems whatsoever. All I want is someone to love, cherish, trust, etc for the rest of my life. And for me it's like hard to find in a relationship. Most guys I went with, well the only thing the like about me which they always say is either looks, eyes, or my fucking ass or whatever I haven't mention or combination of any. Which is so annoying, why can't they just like me for who I am not for what they like or see, this just makes me mad. The only person who only likes me for who I am is my boyfriend right now. Made me the happiest person when he told me that few days ago. I couldn't stop smiling. It was like the happiest day of my life. LOL everytime I'm mad or sad about anything I just think about what he said to me that day..LOL

That's why they have this saying "guys are like toilets, they're either taken, occupied or just full of shit" which I think is sorta of true. Man they just need a smack in the head. If any of my sons or daughters ever so that I would kicked their sorry little ass all the way to China.

Seriously I know I made so mistakes but if I can go back, I would love to change EVERYTHING. I changed a lot since that past two years of my life, like got my priority straight knowing what's right or what's wrong. Well actually I changed from being naughty as you want to say it to nice, I mean like well I've cheated on guys. Yes I know for people who knew me for awhile well I changed after the middle of high school year. LOL the sweet, nicest person changed to a bad little bitch LOL. Well it's cause I didn't know what I wanted, until now, I was too picky.

I have never cheated on my boyfriend because he means so much to me that I don't want to deal with anyone else but him. A week apart made me scared about everything. Well I don't because I don't know what's he doing over there while I'm here waiting for his ass to come back. I haven't done anything while he was gone. Just went to school and back home. I spent the rest of my day at home doing nothing but go online for a bit, watch TV and sleep. I haven't talked or seen anyone outside this house. The only time I went out which was Sunday, I went to the Southland Mall and Great Mall. Went to buy clothes and shoes. LOL..don't I need to get a life.

How you can tell if a guy isn't really into you, is
1. They only care bout fucking you
2. Doesn't pay any attention to you
3. Doesn't appreciate the things you do for them
4. If you have money, they always either ask you for money or buy them something without any hesitation.
5. Doesn't call you
6. Doesn't want to see you with him in public
7. Considered you has a friend to others.
8. Tells you what to do
9. Always saying he loves you but in reality it means I want to get into your pants
10. Controller
11. Looks at other people (girls) while your with him
12. Keeping old things of ex- I got so fucking pissed when an ex did that. LOL because I read something I didn't like.
LOL I have ten...most of them looks the same. Man I can name a lot. LOL

LOL makes me want to list how you can tell a guy is cheating on you.
1. Doesn't call you as much anymore
2. Use to pay attention to you
3. Hides things from you
4. Treats you differently then before.
5. Girls calling the house/cell phone etc.
6. If living with him- comes home late
7. Has so much EXCUSES for EVERYTHING
8. The scent of perfume all over them (It says on for a long time)
9. Scared to be seen in public with you
10. Or anything that's not the same.

There are more to any of these. The most important thing to do is PAY ATTENTION TO EVERYTHING

How I'm feeling

2005-07-26T11:12:00.000-07:00

Today I didn't go to school because I guess I'm having problems. I been thinking I'm just wasting my time beening with him. I just don't want to find out that he still want to be with, I don't know one of his EXs or someone else. I'm getting so unset when I shouldn't be because I don't really know what's going on. I didn't want to go to school because I know if I saw thinking about it, I would start crying. To me I think he's just saying he wants to be with me but really he's saying he doesn't want to. There is one thing that MOSTLY ALWAYS bothers me, when he asks this one question which I don't want to talk about. I have several reasons why I don't like it

1. If he doesn't it, it's like he doesn't care about me.
2. It's wrong because he is with me
3. Well he's actually touching someone else which I think is considered cheating
I don't want to list anymore because right now it's very upsetting just thinking about it.

I asked my friend about this a long and she said the same exact thing I said. I asked other people to make sure it's not just me or my friend, they all said the same thing which is if he does it, means he doesn't really care much about you, once he does it, he cheated on you. It's wrong your his girlfriend and your right there. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH....

I think I need fresh air. I want to go somewhere but I don't really know where I should go. I barely ate anything for two days now. What the hell is wrong with me. I'm just scared about a lot of things at the moment.

Yesterday I just had this feeling that after he called his mom and I guess try to contact his brother in law. He called someone else after. Just had this feeling that he was calling his exgirlfriend. I don't know I just had this huge feeling, because well he has two different phonecards, he was using his cellphone instead of this house phone, and was in his car. I know how he sounds like when talking to different people. The tone of this voice changes for each different person he talks to. When talking to family members well it's different when talking to friends. He has about four different kinds. LOL looks what happens when being with someone for a long time you tend to notice everything they do. Like how they act of the phone with people, how they are around friends, etc...

I hear something downstairs. I think one of the cats caught something again. I'm gonna check it out.

Day Eight (Sunday)

2005-07-24T06:31:00.000-07:00

I'm so really happy my boyfriend is coming today. LOL...Man yesterday I couldn't sleep because he said this sweetest thing I ever heard in my entire life. LOL it almost made me cry (well I actually did last night...LOL). I just kept on smiling last night, couldn't stop smiling after I read his email. LOL. He just made my day.

Today I woke up so early, he called me at 5AM this morning. I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't so I took the car and drove to Walgreens, I had to buy something. Why did I wake up so early, I don't know what I should do for the next 13 hours.

Day Seven (Saturday)

2005-07-23T14:40:00.000-07:00

Man I swear the next door neighboors are like blocking my of getting out of the house. They're like parking behind each other. Like it's a freaking valet parking lot. Two parked in the drive, one huge monster truck on the side and 2 more parked across the street but one in front of the other. They have so much cars, they have two huge truck, one regular truck, and three regular cars.

Man it's so hot today I should of just went somewhere. But the thing is how am I gonna go out when the next door's neighbors car is in the way. It's alright I guess I'll just stay home today, which I was anyways. But it's blocked tomorrow how the hell am I gonna go out.

Well it's almost 3 I think I should finish studying.
I'm so happy....
Boyfriends' coming tomorrow....

Day Six (Friday)

2005-07-22T18:01:00.000-07:00

The past tow days it's been sunny I should of just went out somewhere. Well if tomorrow is alright I might just go out. Never mind I gonna stay home I've got things to do here, maybe Sunday. Yesterday that time went by first, LOL because I been watching the tv shows downstairs.

I'm sooo freaking happy just 2 more days my boyfriends' coming back. I missed him so much while he was gone. Well anyways I sorta got a headache rightt now. Been on the computer so much I think I might do something else.

Day Five (Thursday)

2005-07-21T09:56:00.000-07:00

I didn't go to school today cause I don't know, I didn't feel like going. Well I know we're not gonna do much except start readying chapter 9 I think. I think today I might study the whole day today.