Tuesday, July 26, 2005
♥ How I'm feeling
Today I didn't go to school because I guess I'm having problems. I been thinking I'm just wasting my time beening with him. I just don't want to find out that he still want to be with, I don't know one of his EXs or someone else. I'm getting so unset when I shouldn't be because I don't really know what's going on. I didn't want to go to school because I know if I saw thinking about it, I would start crying. To me I think he's just saying he wants to be with me but really he's saying he doesn't want to. There is one thing that MOSTLY ALWAYS bothers me, when he asks this one question which I don't want to talk about. I have several reasons why I don't like it
1. If he doesn't it, it's like he doesn't care about me.
2. It's wrong because he is with me
3. Well he's actually touching someone else which I think is considered cheating
I don't want to list anymore because right now it's very upsetting just thinking about it.
I asked my friend about this a long and she said the same exact thing I said. I asked other people to make sure it's not just me or my friend, they all said the same thing which is if he does it, means he doesn't really care much about you, once he does it, he cheated on you. It's wrong your his girlfriend and your right there. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH....
I think I need fresh air. I want to go somewhere but I don't really know where I should go. I barely ate anything for two days now. What the hell is wrong with me. I'm just scared about a lot of things at the moment.
Yesterday I just had this feeling that after he called his mom and I guess try to contact his brother in law. He called someone else after. Just had this feeling that he was calling his exgirlfriend. I don't know I just had this huge feeling, because well he has two different phonecards, he was using his cellphone instead of this house phone, and was in his car. I know how he sounds like when talking to different people. The tone of this voice changes for each different person he talks to. When talking to family members well it's different when talking to friends. He has about four different kinds. LOL looks what happens when being with someone for a long time you tend to notice everything they do. Like how they act of the phone with people, how they are around friends, etc...
I hear something downstairs. I think one of the cats caught something again. I'm gonna check it out.
1. If he doesn't it, it's like he doesn't care about me.
2. It's wrong because he is with me
3. Well he's actually touching someone else which I think is considered cheating
I don't want to list anymore because right now it's very upsetting just thinking about it.
I asked my friend about this a long and she said the same exact thing I said. I asked other people to make sure it's not just me or my friend, they all said the same thing which is if he does it, means he doesn't really care much about you, once he does it, he cheated on you. It's wrong your his girlfriend and your right there. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH....
I think I need fresh air. I want to go somewhere but I don't really know where I should go. I barely ate anything for two days now. What the hell is wrong with me. I'm just scared about a lot of things at the moment.
Yesterday I just had this feeling that after he called his mom and I guess try to contact his brother in law. He called someone else after. Just had this feeling that he was calling his exgirlfriend. I don't know I just had this huge feeling, because well he has two different phonecards, he was using his cellphone instead of this house phone, and was in his car. I know how he sounds like when talking to different people. The tone of this voice changes for each different person he talks to. When talking to family members well it's different when talking to friends. He has about four different kinds. LOL looks what happens when being with someone for a long time you tend to notice everything they do. Like how they act of the phone with people, how they are around friends, etc...
I hear something downstairs. I think one of the cats caught something again. I'm gonna check it out.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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