Wednesday, July 27, 2005
♥ Just another day of sadness
Hola people,
Well today I'm done with my final. I probably did bad but I study for two days. Last day of class is tomorrow then I have about three weeks vacation then back to school. Jeeze I so need a job. Well Palmeers Career keeps emailing me that I'm perfect for the accounting assistant position. I just hate interviews though LOL. I hate going thou that shit, they just want to make sure about everything.
Gosh why am I so upset about everything now a days. I don't know why..All I want is be with someone for the rest of my life with no problems whatsoever. All I want is someone to love, cherish, trust, etc for the rest of my life. And for me it's like hard to find in a relationship. Most guys I went with, well the only thing the like about me which they always say is either looks, eyes, or my fucking ass or whatever I haven't mention or combination of any. Which is so annoying, why can't they just like me for who I am not for what they like or see, this just makes me mad. The only person who only likes me for who I am is my boyfriend right now. Made me the happiest person when he told me that few days ago. I couldn't stop smiling. It was like the happiest day of my life. LOL everytime I'm mad or sad about anything I just think about what he said to me that day..LOL
That's why they have this saying "guys are like toilets, they're either taken, occupied or just full of shit" which I think is sorta of true. Man they just need a smack in the head. If any of my sons or daughters ever so that I would kicked their sorry little ass all the way to China.
Seriously I know I made so mistakes but if I can go back, I would love to change EVERYTHING. I changed a lot since that past two years of my life, like got my priority straight knowing what's right or what's wrong. Well actually I changed from being naughty as you want to say it to nice, I mean like well I've cheated on guys. Yes I know for people who knew me for awhile well I changed after the middle of high school year. LOL the sweet, nicest person changed to a bad little bitch LOL. Well it's cause I didn't know what I wanted, until now, I was too picky.
I have never cheated on my boyfriend because he means so much to me that I don't want to deal with anyone else but him. A week apart made me scared about everything. Well I don't because I don't know what's he doing over there while I'm here waiting for his ass to come back. I haven't done anything while he was gone. Just went to school and back home. I spent the rest of my day at home doing nothing but go online for a bit, watch TV and sleep. I haven't talked or seen anyone outside this house. The only time I went out which was Sunday, I went to the Southland Mall and Great Mall. Went to buy clothes and shoes. LOL..don't I need to get a life.
How you can tell if a guy isn't really into you, is
1. They only care bout fucking you
2. Doesn't pay any attention to you
3. Doesn't appreciate the things you do for them
4. If you have money, they always either ask you for money or buy them something without any hesitation.
5. Doesn't call you
6. Doesn't want to see you with him in public
7. Considered you has a friend to others.
8. Tells you what to do
9. Always saying he loves you but in reality it means I want to get into your pants
10. Controller
11. Looks at other people (girls) while your with him
12. Keeping old things of ex- I got so fucking pissed when an ex did that. LOL because I read something I didn't like.
LOL I have ten...most of them looks the same. Man I can name a lot. LOL
LOL makes me want to list how you can tell a guy is cheating on you.
1. Doesn't call you as much anymore
2. Use to pay attention to you
3. Hides things from you
4. Treats you differently then before.
5. Girls calling the house/cell phone etc.
6. If living with him- comes home late
7. Has so much EXCUSES for EVERYTHING
8. The scent of perfume all over them (It says on for a long time)
9. Scared to be seen in public with you
10. Or anything that's not the same.
There are more to any of these. The most important thing to do is PAY ATTENTION TO EVERYTHING
Well today I'm done with my final. I probably did bad but I study for two days. Last day of class is tomorrow then I have about three weeks vacation then back to school. Jeeze I so need a job. Well Palmeers Career keeps emailing me that I'm perfect for the accounting assistant position. I just hate interviews though LOL. I hate going thou that shit, they just want to make sure about everything.
Gosh why am I so upset about everything now a days. I don't know why..All I want is be with someone for the rest of my life with no problems whatsoever. All I want is someone to love, cherish, trust, etc for the rest of my life. And for me it's like hard to find in a relationship. Most guys I went with, well the only thing the like about me which they always say is either looks, eyes, or my fucking ass or whatever I haven't mention or combination of any. Which is so annoying, why can't they just like me for who I am not for what they like or see, this just makes me mad. The only person who only likes me for who I am is my boyfriend right now. Made me the happiest person when he told me that few days ago. I couldn't stop smiling. It was like the happiest day of my life. LOL everytime I'm mad or sad about anything I just think about what he said to me that day..LOL
That's why they have this saying "guys are like toilets, they're either taken, occupied or just full of shit" which I think is sorta of true. Man they just need a smack in the head. If any of my sons or daughters ever so that I would kicked their sorry little ass all the way to China.
Seriously I know I made so mistakes but if I can go back, I would love to change EVERYTHING. I changed a lot since that past two years of my life, like got my priority straight knowing what's right or what's wrong. Well actually I changed from being naughty as you want to say it to nice, I mean like well I've cheated on guys. Yes I know for people who knew me for awhile well I changed after the middle of high school year. LOL the sweet, nicest person changed to a bad little bitch LOL. Well it's cause I didn't know what I wanted, until now, I was too picky.
I have never cheated on my boyfriend because he means so much to me that I don't want to deal with anyone else but him. A week apart made me scared about everything. Well I don't because I don't know what's he doing over there while I'm here waiting for his ass to come back. I haven't done anything while he was gone. Just went to school and back home. I spent the rest of my day at home doing nothing but go online for a bit, watch TV and sleep. I haven't talked or seen anyone outside this house. The only time I went out which was Sunday, I went to the Southland Mall and Great Mall. Went to buy clothes and shoes. LOL..don't I need to get a life.
1. They only care bout fucking you
2. Doesn't pay any attention to you
3. Doesn't appreciate the things you do for them
4. If you have money, they always either ask you for money or buy them something without any hesitation.
5. Doesn't call you
6. Doesn't want to see you with him in public
7. Considered you has a friend to others.
8. Tells you what to do
9. Always saying he loves you but in reality it means I want to get into your pants
10. Controller
11. Looks at other people (girls) while your with him
12. Keeping old things of ex- I got so fucking pissed when an ex did that. LOL because I read something I didn't like.
LOL I have ten...most of them looks the same. Man I can name a lot. LOL
LOL makes me want to list how you can tell a guy is cheating on you.
1. Doesn't call you as much anymore
2. Use to pay attention to you
3. Hides things from you
4. Treats you differently then before.
5. Girls calling the house/cell phone etc.
6. If living with him- comes home late
7. Has so much EXCUSES for EVERYTHING
8. The scent of perfume all over them (It says on for a long time)
9. Scared to be seen in public with you
10. Or anything that's not the same.
There are more to any of these. The most important thing to do is PAY ATTENTION TO EVERYTHING
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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